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well lets see here i no longer have a lease with my mobile home park... i hate sun homes i really do they own woodside terrace where i have been living at for the past 14 years total. they were closed on friday and since i got paid on friday i couldn't pay them since i need receipts; so i get a 50 dollar late charge... my first one ever while living in here and ontop of that an eviction noticed even after i paid 420 since thats how much my rent is. |
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i really am in a need to get a vehicle that will not break down on me when i go to pittsburgh. i really need to get out of ohio just for a little bitt before or incase i can't find a roomie there. ohio makes me feel all depressed and hermit like. i noticed when i would visit pittsburgh i always needed to do things; like meet new friends and to see old ones. i enjoy pittsburgh and in all honesty i know i would love it there..... but unfortunately everyone like my dad, brother in law, sister, nieces and nephews and well lets just say family and some friends don't want me to move there... my dad for instance says i don't know if my jeep will take me to pittsburgh i am not sure if i can get up there if you have problems. also not sure if i be selling the trailer might just say hey im leaving and turn the trailer back to the park managers. i'm just tired of the bullshit here wish i would had left this area a while ago when i had the chance. |
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i been a fur for 10 years, been to 3 furry cons; ac 2003 to 2005, and made so many furriends that i would do anything for in all honesty if given the chance and what so ever. unfortunately the sad part that sucks is that for the past 3 ac's i haven't been able to attend since funding and well other issues and now i am missing the 4th one... see its not the con itself its the people the furs i met the non furs i meet are all very nice, sweet, kind, and very open minded... weird me being very antisocial makes me very happy for just one weekend out of 365 days a year ac is one of the placs that i can be my true self; but before you ask is that was ac does to me well here is the true reason... its pa pittsburgh or philly just being there with the people makes me feel safe non frusterated and relax.... to make things more understandable i feel asthough i am missing a family reunion... im almost 30 and i feel suckie.Current Mood:  blah |
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well lets see here my roomie gary has not paid me rent last friday and the friday before that; and ontop of that i got my gas bill today 138.00 and i am on pipp and heap and my bills are supposed to be lower than that since i am on fixed income. im getting frusterated with doctors and bills and my roomie. i am going to have to tell gary that his rent is going to have to go up since i can't afford all of this shit on my own and no one else can help me out. i am going to have to get rid of my tv and keep te phone and internet because lets face it it will be cheaper just to have the phone and internet or i am going to just tell gary to just purchase the house from me for 2 grand and i will just go and get into an apartment... i don't know what to do all i know is that with the doctors and these bills all i want to do is either run away or commit suicide. im not being emo or anything like that i am just stressing cause i need help and can't get it. man i hate this shit i really do i just don't know what to really do anymore.
oh if anyone is looking for a roomie let me know i don't know if i be living here for very much longer not sure until tonight.Current Mood:  pissed off |
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well yesterday i was out driving around and went to burger king at spring meadows... well i was enjoying my burgers my little ripoffs of white castle sliders and all of a sudden i hear the employees say hey harry potter. well this brought my heart to skip and i looked up and i think i actually seen my ex brandon since i think he looks very much like potter, and well i couldn't see much cause he was working in the back. i didn't do anything i just sat at my table and just relaxed. also will most likely be getting a new computer case by tomorrow actually and with me being smart and keeping some old harddrvies i can actually go and put a computer back together again. so tomorrow will be my little adventure of getting my bills paid and with the help of my father get a new case. i also found a place over by franklin park mall to where i can sell my anime dvds that i have. like my eva series and my ..... dangit forgot the series called but it has to deal with dragon of the earth and angels or something i haven't seen them in years so i guess it is time for me to get rid of them.
oh and another thing i am getting irritated at people keep calling me on private and not saying a god damn word. i mean they call every 5 minutes sometimes for atleast an hour. i know its a cell phone cause the way the cell and home phone disconnects is different from one another. well anywho hopefully i will have the computer back up tomorrow and after that hopefully back online. |
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just a heads up trying to get ahold of terrance. i was wondering if he will be attending ac this year and if he is going to see theaddie soon? i will like to partake in both activities if possible. please hit me up if anyone knows if anything is going on. please try calling me @ four1nine-four9one-zero7two7. i ned a vacation from ohio lol.
May. 18th, 2009 @ 07:14 pm
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i am thinking about going back to my ex chris. its sad i done alot of bad things to him and i don't want to lose him. i can't sleep nor eat nor do anything productive... also if chris and i do come back together i am tired of the bullshit that was there from my friends and family and from my stupid immature shit. chris and i do fight thats because of my stupid bullshit. chris has been there for me for 4 years the longest in any relationship i ever had.... i don't want it to be over. i love chris and i think about him constantly. i can't sleep i have to cry so i can sleep, i can't eat and i can't get mysel to clean . he wanted me to pack his stuff and the thing is i can't our home is our home it is his and mine and i want that to be for a long time. i need him back not because of the financials cause i miss him i miss his smell his face and his voice..... god this week sucks.
May. 8th, 2009 @ 02:15 pm
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it will be a while till you all see me online again.... my computer is down since i have no harddrives. anywho i will be back with plnty to say just want to go since i am at my sisters.
Apr. 29th, 2009 @ 05:43 pm
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it feels like since I KICKED out my roomie that I no longer have friends.... "oh i'm tired", or "Your BF is a CUNT" or whatever the fuck everyone says so they don't come over and hang out... fine no problem don't want to talk to me, don't want to be my friend, or what the fuck ever then fine. I'm tired of kissing everyones ass so they can like me or what ever. if you don't like me cause you can't stand my mate or you don't like me cause i gained balls and will no longer allow anyone to walk all over me anymore then its your loss. i been home for almost a month now and its kinda sad when i had my roomie here my friends would always come over.... must be because the roomie always had weed on them..... man my so called friends (not you dopey your in columbus) really need to grow the fuck up and shouldn't throw rocks when they live in glass houses.
Apr. 26th, 2009 @ 03:55 pm
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Man finding drivers sucks ass. asus high definition audio controller drivers are hard to find. my music is too quiet well sound period cause i am using a surround sound speakers they only 2 speakers are sounding not the other 3 nor the subwoofer. i can't find the drivers and i am looking trust me.,
Apr. 25th, 2009 @ 12:52 am
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The Mirage Group has given the green light for development of a live-action major motion picture focusing on the origins of the iconic Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, targeted for release in 2011.
Announcement of the latest (fifth) big screen version of the crime-fighting "heroes in a half-shell" comes on the day the Turtles kick off their 25th anniversary national "Shell-ebration" in New York City with multiple events that include the honor of lighting the Empire State Building in 'turtle green' and a unique outdoor presentation of their beloved first Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles film at the Tribeca Film Festival "Drive-In".
Mirage is partnering with producers Scott Mednick (300, Superman Returns, 10,000 BC, and the upcoming Where the Wild Things Are) and Galen Walker (who produced the most recent computer-animated TMNT theatrical release) to create this live-action film. Peter Laird, Gary Richardson, Frederick Fierst, Eric Crown and Napoleon Smith III will serve as executive producers of the film, which is based on the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles characters created by Laird and Kevin Eastman. Mednick and Walker will serve as producers. The project is being funded through Lightbox Productions, LLC.
"It was critical to us to find people who both understood the Turtles franchise and were accomplished film makers who appreciated both the action and humor components of the Turtles' identity ," said Gary Richardson CEO, The Mirage Group. "With Galen and Scott we know we've found great talent with those essential attributes."
"The original dozen comics created by Peter Laird and Kevin Eastman are some of the best source material one could hope for," said Mednick. "We're excited to bring this story to a whole new generation of moviegoers as well as the legions of fans that have made the Turtles - Leonardo, Michelangelo, Donatello, and Raphael as well as Splinter, April O'Neil, Casey Jones and, of course, the great villain Shredder - a part of their world for 25 years."
Mednick has begun reaching out to writers and directors and is already in discussion with several high-profile actors interested in portraying Turtles characters they loved as kids.
4Kids Entertainment, master licensing agency for the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles property, will be handling all the movie merchandise licensing.
The "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" made their public premiere in May 1984 in a comic book published and distributed by Mirage Studios. A hugely successful TV series quickly followed, along with a record-setting licensing program and three successful live-action theatrical films. In 2003, the Turtles were re-introduced to a new generation through a fresh TV series, a computer- animated theatrical movie and new merchandising program. The 25th year of "TMNT" will provide fans of all ages with the opportunity to experience this evergreen property in a ten-city mobile tour highlighted by the "TMNT" Party Bus, a rolling museum of "TMNT" memorabilia.
one question... how are they going to do this?
Apr. 23rd, 2009 @ 10:24 pm
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anyone know where i can get an external 1 or 2 tb hardrive usb ability i tried on new egg and i can't find a good one. i'm looking for one so i can put all of my movies and cartoons on it instead of my computer harddrives just having pics and music on my computer. so anyone can help it be very greatful.
Apr. 19th, 2009 @ 11:19 pm
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as of right now the living room and bedroom are almost completely cleaned. the computer is now in the living room and the bedroom looks and feels now like a bedroom and the living room seems a little bigger. the kitchen and dining room will be worked on tomorrow since i am taking a break on cleaning since it is almost 10 at night. i'm looking forward for getting the place clean. the clothes are getting catched up.
Apr. 17th, 2009 @ 09:21 pm
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yeah for the last couple of days almost a week to be exactly i been having stupid dreams. dreams of me being 21 again going back to highschool (not sure why so don't ask) and at the point freddy krueger was in it (don't ask me why) and it was just fucked up. freddy krueger was more of a crazy funny individual that enjoyed killing and when he was trying to get back into the dream world he was burnt again and this time went into a girls vagu to get back into the dream world (again don't know why). in these dreams i would be helping teenagers male and female and at the same time doing other iddiotic shit. i would even help freddy at the same time trying to run from him lol. the thing is lastnight i dreamnt of more stupid shit with alot of anthro and non anthro versions of myself and of everyone in the world. it was like a whole bunch of parrelel (sp) worlds were merging. i guess with the bullshit that has been hitting me lately that my mind went fuck you and started giving me bizzarre visions not sure why though sicne i can make my own world and life as bizzarre as anyone i guess. these are bits and pieces of my dreams and the thing is if sigmund froyd (sp) was still around he would tell me some shit that i still wouldn't understand. i do not know what to make out of the dreams all i know is that it focused alot of me; rather it be older me, present, past and fantasy parts of myself. god damn i wish i understood dreams because then i can try and bring the information into reality and figure out what the fuck to do lol. meh lets see what goes on tonight if i can sleep since i woke up at 3 in the afternoon today.
Apr. 14th, 2009 @ 08:38 pm
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its almost the 14th and i think that my roomie thinks i am joking about kicking him out. i told him 3 times that he needs to leave and he hasn't yet started to pack his shit. the 14th at midnight which is TUESDAY. he hasn't paid rent so he doesn't need to be there plus i will not live with someone that has a anger issue that enjoys taking it out on everyone. he has made people very uncomfortable and to be highly honest i am not afraid of him i just don't want to be around him. he is in chris's and my home and he needs to respect that and he needs to leave. i will not tolerate anymore bullshit from anyone. if he is not out by the 14th his rent will be doubled and will have no privacy. he will not walk all over me and if needed i will have my FAMILY come over there and forcively move him out rather it be packing his belongings and placing them outside. my family has the right to come to my house and do it since they have the key to the house. and to be frank Chris did not tell me to write the letters i did it my own free will. see things would had been different if dopey or anyone else lived with us cause lets face it there wouldn't be any jealousy issues. I want to be back hom with chris and not having any issues. since being at chris's mothers home with out chris's mother here chris and i have been doing great not fighting; yeah we might snip at each other from time to time but we don't yell and scream at each other. dude i know you read this and to be highly honest most of the issues chris an i had at home was cause of you. you need to leave and i want to be home without you there on wednesday. I WANT TO SLEEP IN MY OWN BED!!! SO GET THE FUCK OUT!!!!
Apr. 12th, 2009 @ 07:29 pm
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i accidentally shaved my eyebrows off:(. i got this new clippers set for hair beard and nose and i was checking it out and i was trying to trim my eyebrows well instead of trimming them they got shaved off. so now i look stupid.. like i haven't looked stupid at all.
Apr. 9th, 2009 @ 08:44 pm
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i'm tired of being disrespected, i am tired of bing walked all over and i am tired of of bullshit. everyone in my life has told me time from time to get a set of fucking balls and when i do it feels like everyone is against me. look you can believe what i did was not of my own; but lets face it chris had nothing to do with it. chris did not tell me to tell my roomie to get out I DID!!!. look when i get a set of balls and stand up to myself i am looked upon like being a bad guy and to be honest if i am looked upon like i am then hey that is your oppinion and your entitled to have that and to think that of me. but lets face it if anyone is pounding on my walls, threatening to burn my house down and well to be highly honest will not take responsibilities for your self or for your property then by all means get the fuck out.
I'm tired of walking on eggshells and i am tired of alot of bullshit that has been going on in my life for the past almost year and a half. i been thrown in jail twice last year and to be honest i will not go back. the negetivity and the anger that was in my house needed to be gone. now that i stood up for myself i feel good. now that i will have room in my house to do what i want and how i want.
so to all the friends that knows whats going on in my life at this time well lets face it you don't live with me and you don't know the entire story. so for now on when you fuck with me you will get burned.
i'm tired of chris, gary and i bringing food into our house and no one else contributes to it. i'm tired of chris, gary and i bringing in taxables and no one else contributes to it. see i got responsibilities and i tend to get every bill and items into the house before i spend money of recreational items. i do not spend 120 to 240 a month maybe more of things that make me lose reality. take some responsibility start acting like a man instead of a boy and stop hating the world just because they do not agree with you on everything. also learn to control your anger cause if you don't then well you will either be killed, jailed or very very hurt like in a hospital.
If you have a problem with chris then i am sorry but atleast chris has done alot of things for my friends. when dopey was staying with us chris always bought sparks or smokes for him and not even asking anything in return. when poodle was not working for that couple of months chris bought him smokes and alchohol aswell without asking anything in return; hell he even took you out to dinner and you never once offer to get chris anything when you had money. theres times that chris can be a bitch but lets face it he would do anything for you if your nice to him and respected him.
people needs to stop being so god damn greedy and alsways hating everyone that doesn't a like them or b doesn't take your shit.
so if you want to come over my friends to my house please by all means RESPECT ME and RESPECT the ones that live there. if you live or lived with me and you were thrown out by me thats because you didn't respect me. of and jesse if you say that you kill yourself well to be honest that is your own problem i will not feel like i killed you and to be honest if you do that that means your a coward.
this is how i feel and this is how i will be till i feel like everyone has understood me. i am almost 30 years old and its time for a god damn change.
Apr. 7th, 2009 @ 01:58 pm
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well about a week ago well yeah a week ago last friday i decided to shave my balding head and well to be honest i actually like it the beard goes great with my bald head plus i enjoy rubbing it it feels all stubby. its been about 10 years that i had my head shaved and i think i will be keeping my head shaved since well my hair is obsolete. so no more bitching about my hair since i will no longer have it grown. also i think i look good with my head bald i look younger... well that what people have said. assoon as i get a picture of myself i will post it i just feel alittle better about myself now.
need to pay bills today so im about to shower.
Apr. 3rd, 2009 @ 02:12 pm
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well on friday i descided to do something that i thought i would ever do again and well i shaved my head... yes i shaved my head bald but not to the skin there is stubble. i enjoy this cause when i wear my contacts i do not feel like i am older nor do i feel younger eventhough i been told i look younger without my hair lol. i really enjoy feeling my head when i am relaxing... and no you perverts not the head in my pants but the head on my shoulders. i still wear a hat but not much anymore cause well i enjoy not having one on much.. all i have to say is that atleast i do not have to pay for a haircut anylonger i just do it at home. well i know its late but im hungry and can not sleep. anywho hope everyone is doing well.
Mar. 31st, 2009 @ 02:37 am
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| » spiderman saves boy / please read |
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http://cbs2.com/watercooler/spiderman.autism.thailand.2.966363.html
after reading this is almost got me choked up. i like hearing news about this something bad that turns out to be great. i hope i didn't sound too disturbed.
Mar. 24th, 2009 @ 05:11 pm
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Well this has been on my mind for some time now. Thoughts of the idea and the feeling of getting a new tatt is really exciting me now since i really do not know when i will be able to afford it since its going to be a half sleeve starting from my wrist all the way up to my elbow. Hell for the way I look maybe I should truly be the look. See I look kinda like well a preppy/greaser/goth/nerd lol' but I been leaning more towards my old scene back to the all black clothing and I am not talking about gothic or emo if you say I'm more on wanting to be dressed with the black jeans the bandanas, black shirts, boots sun glasses. For how i been feeling as of late. not really caring about others but my own self... yeah I been feeling like that as of late but why should i truly stop it? i don't feel asthough i am hurting anyone besides i am tired of not being my real self. I am a nice person in heart but on the outside i miss being looked upon like i am an outsider. its how i felt like back in highschool just not being that immature like i was back then.
I want to start doing things for myself now not for anyone else like my bf or friends hell i'm starting not to care on there opinions. Yeah I know someone is going to tell me well that is wrong you should care about your friends opinions; but unfortunately opinions are like assholes everyone has one.
Yeah i may not look like the hot long haired boy i was back then, since i am now almost looking like patrick stewart in hair wise. Hell i don't tend to wear a goatee any longer its mostly a beard; just not a thick one i tend to keep it short and thin. its weird looking the way i will be looking and feeling like i'm free. lol my bf calls me a bear in the gay community; but i don't ever want to be in a category i want to be myself. I'm me i can still be and do anything that i feel that is write and correct for myself. I'm tired of the memories of the past "but if you don't your dooomed to repeat them.'....
Fuck on repeating them; what about feeling like shit cause you can't forget them?
Hopefully after i get this tattoo done things will start to get alittle better. need more physical pain then emotional pain; just too tired on having emotions at all.
Mar. 22nd, 2009 @ 02:51 am
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Like the heading says. with some of the paths I walked in my life; and somethings I wonder what my life would had became if I never moved from germany to here....
I wonder if the steps in my life that i have made for myself were the right ones or ones that ended too soon before they could had begun..
I have thoughts of well me within a different life but same year; just the reality is different. I see myself as a 29 year old german citizen yeah my dad is in the states with my sisters and i am with my mother... I think at times that my life would had been better being with my german relatives... (i know its weird having these thoughts.)
Then I wonder what would had been like in my life if i never done the things i have done in the past....
(not me being emo)
Just wondering alot since I am almost 30 years olds.
Mar. 8th, 2009 @ 12:59 am
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its been a while since i updated my lj and here we go. my aunt stella passed awa and i couldn't go to the funeral since no one invited me to attend so bleh. my bf and i are still having issues. just recently upgraded from a ps2 to gasp an xbox 360 my gamer tage is either wolger or wolger surface i forgot lol. i only have 2 games for it 1 is fallout 3 and the other is my wrestling wwe smackdown vs raw 2009. still do not have a car my dad won't give me back his since i accidentally driven on a flat and ripped the tire apart. i didn't know it was flat i do not check the tires. finally got my cable back thank god. so yeah alot of shit has been happening some good but mostly bad. my birthday sucked and so did christmas and well life goes on.
Feb. 8th, 2009 @ 06:43 pm
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| » alittle update. |
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most likely will be heading out to colorado for my aunts funeral... yeah my dad's sister has only 2 weeks to live and the poetic justice part is that my dad can't come. my family in colorado do not want him there.. im like oh fuck i guess finally you made everyone in the family not care for you... in my oppinion karma's a bitch and she's in heat. anywho so yeah be heading out the state where i was born to bury my aunt instead of having her show me around for my birthday. so yeah kinda feeling bleh... still no internet but hey trying to get it back up.
Dec. 23rd, 2008 @ 01:18 am
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| » life so far |
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yeah been a while since i been online well here is why. my bills at this time are well fucked lol to just say the least. relationship issues witch is going slow on trying to fix but who knows what is going to happen. right now i am house sitting till thursday for a friend. its hard this year but hey shit happens right? went to the eopa building today and then had to go to the ssi building whitch thank the gods was only 10 minutes from each other. the reason i needed to get to the eopa building was due to the fact that my gas was turned off and my electricity was close from getting disconnected. so tomorrow my gas will be back on enethough i will not be home till about thursday and not sure when i will be back online since my cable is also off so no tv, no internet, no heat makes the wolger sumthin.
anywho assoon as i get internets back me will be back. till then hope everyones christmas is going to be good and safe.
Dec. 15th, 2008 @ 09:48 pm
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| » hiatus |
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i am going to be taking a hiatus for a while not sure when; but i need to get some things straightened out in my life and i can't have the internet part of it right now. so if anyone wants to get intouch with me just email at wolftaur_99@yahoo.com or wolger@buckeye-express.com.
Nov. 20th, 2008 @ 08:49 am
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| » Long damn day |
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well today was the lovely day of making good choices. Voting for changes for our state and country; and for the first time it feels like my vote was actually counted. So right now I'm watching the percentages. Oh if anyone wants to know who i voted for is Barack Obama. I just hope that he will keep to his words and change this country for the best. Had a bad experience though at the booths... My dad was in my place cause he did a absent ballot and it was on my name. SO for 15 minutes we had to do it all over and to realize that i had to do a whole fucking envelope. so I did my patriotic duty and made some choices. After that Chris and I went looking for a new vehicle since the cavalier was basically on its last gear. on the way to look at car place pay here buy here. The first one was Nationwide auto on the other side of town. the people there were assholes. they said of you would need 500 dollars to 1000; since we went to both of the nationwide to look for a guy named moe. we were snapped and treated us like we were nothing. so on the way home we check out a dealership that said 500 to 2000 dollars down payment. well we said ok no thank you. now to inform you the car was on its last gear the transmission started to go out. so after we finally got home chris called jdbyryder and to be honest we got a new car a 2000 ford taurus all parts warranted besides the heating and cooling. the drive is great; smooth and lots of room being a 4 door v6 engine. i feel really comfortable in this vehicle. the bi weakly payment is 168 so a little over 300 a month.
So now its my turn to get a new vehicle.
weee long good day???
Nov. 4th, 2008 @ 10:20 pm
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| » am i thinking crazy??? or am i crazy? |
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with the way gas prices ha been falling i believe that it will be normal even after the 4th of november. People think i am crazy for thinking this cause they all say oh it will be higher again. i just do not think so; i believe that obama will be president and that the gas prices will be normal or even alittle high but not close to the 3 or 4 dollar mark... with the way the economy is failing and our jobs are fewer i believe that this will be the reason our prices in gas won't be that high. by november 4th i think the united states will have its first mixed president. i believe that he will bring the change that we all need to survive by job, education, health etc. so the question is am i crazy or am i thinking crazy?
Nov. 2nd, 2008 @ 03:12 pm
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| » WoW someone gotta read this. |
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-- Former Governor of Minnesota and professional wrestler Jesse Ventura tells Chris Yandek of CYInterview.com that the current U.S. Government System is like Adolph Hitler's Germany. When asked his thoughts on the two party system and if there ever would be a dominant third party in this country Ventura said of the current policies of today, "I find it very disturbing when my country is following the philosophy of Nazis.”
Ventura added that he's keeping the door open on a 2012 Presidential run, "I just always leave the opening there because I am not a soothsayer. I cannot predict the future. Therefore I really don’t know what my mindset will be or what the situation will be four years from now, but I’ve learned in my 57 years on the planet that you never shut the door to anything."
You can read and listen to the interview at the link below:
http://www.thesportsinterview.com/jesse.html
Oct. 24th, 2008 @ 08:31 pm
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| » So Yeah Doctors... |
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Well its has been a couple of months of me getting my health under control mentally and physically. Wee i am actually enjoying it. been seeing three doctors one for my mental pills, one to talk to and the other my health. taking about 4 different medications so far and i think i need stronger antidepressents since i still get really angry almost like the hulk i guess lol not good. getting my blood pressure under control and getting myself to stop smoking and god damn is it hard anf frusterating. i mean come on i smoke maybe 3 to 4 full cigs a day which is not bad unlike the full packs a day to a pack and a half a day.
Well my first doctors appointment for my physical health started on the 23 of september and i was at 168lbs wow i didn't look it. todays appointment is much weirder... I lost 8 lbs and to be honest it still doesn't look like it that i lost much i mean i still got access fat but i can not tell on how much. Also got a booster shot today which my right shoulder is hurting like hell it feels like i am constantly getting punched in the shoulder so yeah it sucks on that part.
Drinking i am starting over on been doing great tried to drink a small tiny glass of rum and coke and blegh it got me alittle buzzed but that was about an hour ago. i don't think i will be touching anymore to be honest i really do not like the affect it has with my meds kinda scary like things are tensing up. So yeah hopefully i will be in better shape and in better control by next year.
Oct. 23rd, 2008 @ 09:57 pm
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Your result for The Which Ancient Language Are You Test... PhoenicianYou scored 
You are the Phoenician Alphabet! Teacher of the Greeks and Etruscans, you are the one all languages bow down to. That is, until the Romans decide to wipe out your civilization. That's the way the cookie crumbles. Take The Which Ancient Language Are You Test at HelloQuizzy
Oct. 16th, 2008 @ 11:19 pm
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well my day started out driving my mate to work since i had a doctors appointment and only having one vehicle. well after the doctors appointment i went to brown pontiac to look at this 95 pontiac grandam and well unfortunatelly i can not get it. i can not get a co signer to help and i wish i could cause the sales man would had helped me out as much as he could since i told him that i was on ssi and only could afford a low carpayment of about 100-150. he would had given me the car if my repo thanks for my father wasn't on my credit report.All i want to do now is cry and bitch and moan and well what does that solve? actually nothing. wel i also seen some of my family namely my aunt and my uncle was there (uncle allen) and well he tells me that you better stay away from your father; i said in return i washed my hands of him im done with him. which i am i don't want anything to do with my father any more. but yeah thats how my day was. now i just need to get the money my dad needs to give me and im done. hopefully i can find a car soon without anyones help.
Oct. 2nd, 2008 @ 09:40 pm
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| » please read want oppinions |
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this was emailed to me just wondering if it would really work if done that way?
Absolutely love this IDEA but it makes TOO much sense, no politician could possibly grasp the simplicity of the idea!!!! MW
I'm against the $85,000,000,000.00 bailout of AIG.
Instead, I'm in favor of giving $85,000,000,000 to America in
a We Deserve It Dividend.
To make the math simple, let's assume there are 200,000,000
bonafide U.S. Citizens 18+.
Our population is about 301,000,000 +/- counting every man, woman
and child. So 200,000,000 might be a fair stab at adults 18 and up..
So divide 200 million adults 18+ into $85 billon that equals
$425,000.00.
My plan is to give $425,000 to every person 18+ as a
We Deserve It Dividend.
Of course, it would NOT be tax free.
So let's assume a tax rate of 30%.
Every individual 18+ has to pay $127,500.00 in taxes.
That sends $25,500,000,000 right back to Uncle Sam.
But it means that every adult 18+ has $297,500.00 in their pocket.
A husband and wife has $595,000.00.
What would you do with $297,500.00 to $595,000.00 in your family?
Pay off your mortgage - housing crisis solved.
Repay college loans - what a great boost to new grads
Put away money for college - it'll be there
Save in a bank - create money to loan to entrepreneurs.
Buy a new car - create jobs
Invest in the market - capital drives growth
Pay for your parent's medical insurance - health care improves
Enable Deadbeat Dads to come clean - or else
Remember this is for every adult U S Citizen 18+ including the folks
who lost their jobs at Lehman Brothers and every other companythat is cutting back. And of course, for those serving in our Armed
Forces.
If we're going to re-distribute wealth let's really do it...instead of
trickling out
a puny $1000.00 ( 'vote buy' ) economic incentive that is being proposed
by one of our candidates for President.
If we're going to do an $85 billion bailout, let's bail out every adult
U S Citizen 18+!
As for AIG - liquidate it.
Sell off its parts.
Let American General go back to being American General.
Sell off the real estate.
Let the private sector bargain hunters cut it up and clean it up.
Here's my rationale. We deserve it and AIG doesn't.
Sure it's a crazy idea that can 'never work.'
But can you imagine the Coast-To-Coast Block Party!
How do you spell Econo mic Boom?
I trust my fellow adult Americans to know how to use the $85 Billion
We Deserve It Dividend more than I do the geniuses at AIG or in
Washington DC .
And remember, This plan only really costs $59.5 Billion because $25.5
Billion is returned
instantly in taxes to Uncle Sam.
Ahhh...I feel so much better getting that off my chest.
Kindest personal regards,
Oct. 1st, 2008 @ 12:35 am
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| » Yay or Nay |
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Well am I wrong for thinking that the rich people the stock market people are losing there monies and jobs? i mean about 4 people only voted for the 700 billion dollar bail out, and I do not know what to say or do. so how should i react? i mean lets face it most of the people i know are in the middle class or under and we are fighting to pay our bills and other things; while the rich gotten richer and richer. hopefully the rich will lose so much money that they know what its like to lose there jobs and have to live with a 1 or 2 car and a 1 story house with 2 to 3 bedrooms and the house will not be huge it will be small or medium. so is this funny or not how should i really feel?
Sep. 29th, 2008 @ 06:40 pm
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| » thank you guys!!!! |
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thank you bob, terrance and pat for stopping over to see if i wanted to hop along. i was at home at about 7 oclock pm since i had to go and mow chris's mother's lawn. i needed to get out of town and when i found out everyone started to leave at 8 oclock i was very upset cause no one double checked with me. chris was ok with me leaving but i thought terrance needed gas monies. well anyways thanks for asking me to tag along. you all knew i needed to get out of town thanks alot.
Sep. 26th, 2008 @ 11:30 pm
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Sep. 25th, 2008 @ 12:06 pm
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| » i am so not a horse |
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Sep. 25th, 2008 @ 11:55 am
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| » This is not me being emo... |
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Just a little vent that i need to get off my back. I lost my vehicle about a week ago and how i was taking it was pretty weird. well today i came to the conclusion on going to my doctors this time a physical doctor not a shrink. well i was driving i realized that i need to start saving money up so i can purchase a vehicle. so hopefully by ac i will be having a car so i can drive my mate and i there and back. i am looking for a mid to late 90's pontiac grandam or grandprix.... since i loveeeeeeeee pontiacs not sure why but they need to be 4 doors and i seen 4 doors of these vehicles that i really like. found one but my dad and everyone else besides my mate said eh not my problem my mate said we will get you a car. the thing is i don't want my mate to get me a car. he has done way too much for me as it is. so well i am taking medication for my blood pressure and for me to quit smoking"gasp me quit smoking?!" yeah and after that getting my cholestoral undercontrol and then hopefully by the ned of the summer next year i can get into the service. hey i am on medications i am changing my life around. slowly but hey its changing.
Sep. 23rd, 2008 @ 08:37 pm
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| » No Need Help!!! |
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Well my Aunt Pauline and I talked lastnight for a good amount of time; and I asked her an honest question "Do you think that my dad will help me out?" Her reply was "In all honesty no since he is screwing himself over." "you also need to stop relying on your father" which I am trying to since well in my honest oppinion owns me 1200 dollars from my half of the carpayment that he never sent in. So right now I am mostly going to go to either Spuds to see if they have any good vehicles not destroyed and to Dicks and see if they can do a car payment plan. My dad screwed me to the point where I do not want to be around him. I am not upset about the car I am upset that my dad isn't taking some of the responsibility. I told him instead of me giving him the 150 that he gives me the 150 and I make the payments; he said no. So I gave him some options.... Just saying that my dad didn't even try with me. He always told me to not let anyone walk all over you or fuck you... Well now I know how my dad really is. The sad thing is if he was still drinking and smoking he would be a cool dude cause he would be more laid back. Shit happens I guess.
Sep. 19th, 2008 @ 11:47 am
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| » HEY EVERYBODY!!!! |
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I have no car, it was repoed lastnight thanks for my father not putting his half of the car payment in and now he is saying it going to take him about 3 months to get me a nother car. when i found two vehicles one being at 875 the other being at 1000. it pisses me off to the point that when my family needs my help i jump and when i need any help they just well scatter like cockroaches. i'm done relying on my family, im tired of being fucked and im tired that my family doesn't give a rats ass about my problems. well fine lets face it here then. im done no more going to my father when i need help i hope that he won't come to me when he needs it. so if any of you still have family by all means please keep them if they are nice and helpful if not just fuck them i know i am.
Sep. 18th, 2008 @ 06:07 pm
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| » Why do I even Fucking Try?! |
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well this has been a stressful couple of days worse then the last month and a half. friday i went over to moms(jackie) and i was just talking about how i wish everyone can get along that are in my life and i was petting this one cute ass dog his name is brutis*sp* and i said awww would you like to come home with me just joking since i liked him when i first seen him since he looks like a small timber wolf even though he is a pom. so her son brought brutis over yesterday and just gave him to us (since he owned me alot of money) and now my roomie is upset. you know i try and try and try to make people fucking happy and it just blows right up in my face. it seems like i can not do anything right. also what else bothers me is that my roomie doesn't like dogs but he wants a big dog go figure. now i have my roomie most likely moving out and that means more stress on me. my chest has been hurting to the point that my left arm is hurting.
the dog was a gift to my mate due to his loss on august 6th. i am just so fucking tired anymore nothing goes right and i been doing good but now i just don't fucking care. im starting not to care if my mate and i will stay together i don't care if my friends are nolonger my friends and i don;t care if i die tonight or tomorrrow. this is not a emo moment this is just how i am feeling. i drink cause i get pissed i smoke to relax me and i have health issues. i might as be the angsty emotional miserable human being like my father is.
i can't do anything fucking right for anyone.
Sep. 14th, 2008 @ 06:02 pm
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| » weeee drunkenesss |
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well i am drinking now cause i can;t take the stress and the bullshit from everyone bitching about my mate that is my family and friends. lastnight i posted a blog about how i fucking feel and the way my friends and family been treating my mate. if those people respect me then they will respect my mate aswell. im tired of this shit and lastnight my mate almost left me and if thats the thing when my friends makes my mate break up with me and not me making my mate break up with me then thats a problem. so if no one cares about my feelings then why the fuck am i friends with you notr why am i in a fucking family that doesn't respect my partner like they respect me eventhough its not alot its still respect.
Sep. 12th, 2008 @ 02:08 pm
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| » ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!!! |
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I am Tired of everyone fucking not getting along! Tonight after i came back from my fathers place chris and i talked about everyone putting him down. I know i been thinking and wishing him to dump me and everything and me possibly not loving him anymore, and brian told me so you don't think you love him shit your giving him 20 dollars eventhough you should keep half of it. the issue is we need the fucking money for bills and the such. Chris has never put any of my friends down nor my family and has always been there for any of you when needed. like when bob asks if he can watch the child, or when dopey wanted a ride from his place to mine or from owens and at sometimes not being asked for gas money(thats my fault there). Chris almost broke up with me tonight and to be honest it SCARED THE FUCK out of me.. Cause lets face it how the fuck would i been able to pay the rent and the bills without having money for gas and ciggerettes? God damnit i just everyone to respect chris if your respect me as much as i respect you all then please stop acting like fucking school children and please apologize to chris and let our friendship and family continue to be happy. i swear and this is the promise that if you all break chris and i apart i will move away from all of you and i mean it its not a fucking emotional moment. REMEMBER i am on medication when i get pissed i don;t black out so don;t piss me off to the point where i say fuck you all cause when it happens kiss this boy gone. I am tired of this bullshit and it needs to fucking end.
Everyone can come over but i want to be fucking respected in chris's poodle's and mine home. We pay the bills here we bring the food in and we help each other out. Remember I have everyright to vent about chris and mine relationship since i am the one FUCKING HIM!!!! so when you all bitch about chris well your oppinions mean shit. So start getting along or kiss me fucking goodbye!!!!.
Sep. 11th, 2008 @ 10:04 pm
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Sep. 11th, 2008 @ 08:02 am
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| » what a nice day i had today... Sorry for the length |
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for first up i been sick for the past couple of days and well this morning i awoke in bed to discover that i had been sweating (and lets face it the ac is between 65-70 degrees). now this was at about 8:30 am cause i had to use the restroom; i then wenst back to bed scince i still felt like crap but before that i drank about 2 full size glasses of water. I then woke up at about 10:30 am and since then been up.
I met terrance's girlfriend who i think is pretty cool. so talked to them till about 1:30 pm and shortly after there went to see my father and brother in law with my roomate. i talked to my dad but at first thought hey nothing is wrong since he was acting kinda funny. i mean my dad was kinda hyper and for me that really scares me since this was the same exact way my dad was acting when he had his first big one back on june 15th 2001... (what were you doing on fathers day in 2001?) he had his difibulater (SP) about a couple of months ago. so i am over there just from 8 to 10 pm and my dad asked me so did you know i had a heartattack at 4:30 this morning and well no i didn't know you looked fine to me earlier (without thinking i said)
So am I scared? Did the info put the fear of god into me?
well lets see here am I scared? I am having mixed feelings about this subject. i do know how to feel having your father being your best friend. having your friends actually talk to him as though they could tell him anything and everything. Going to concerts with you and your friends well mostly with you (his son)(me). having alot of memories attending wwe house shows. and the last person that you were able to come out to....
Then you have the father that knows and is not happy that you are gay. my dad is displeased that the fact i am gay and i know my oldest has the same feelings on that subject aswell. tearing you down saying that you mount to anything and blame me for his mishappens; his failures. holding me back on my very potential that i believe i have inside.
So again am i scared?
i don;t know since i am living with my mate and my roommate Poodle and to be honest we are doing good not great but good so no i am not scared but i am going to miss him.
Did it put the fear of god in me?
FUCK NO!
I been seeing this day coming just didn't know when it will hit still don't know all i feel right now is kinda numb don't feel like crying i just feel numb and empty.
Again sorry for the length.
alovely update after hearing my mate talking to my sister about my dad's "heartattck" it came to me that my dad had a anxiety attack. no further issues if anything comes up will inform.. i just hate being lied to.
Sep. 7th, 2008 @ 10:44 pm
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well lastnight at about 1030 my dad calls and tells me that his car has been repoed. well the bad news is i might be losing my vehicle aswell and if that happens what the fuck am i going to do for transportation when my mate works and so does my roomie. so here i am checking out on craigslist to see if anyone is selling there vehicles and what they look like. i'm kinda upset about this but what can you do? i paid for the car payment on my half and my dad has allowed this to happen is kinda upsetting but i won't fight about it i am just scared as a hell. i just hope my dad will purchase the car i will get since it will be hi majority of the fault if my vehicle gets repoed. so right now i am looking for the prices of lets see 600 to about 2500. i hopefully will find a vehicle around that price limit.
Sep. 4th, 2008 @ 01:26 pm
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| » god i need a drink |
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for the first time in about 5 months all i want right now is a bottle of hard liqiuor. the stress over the past month has not been great. i wish that my body can handle the liqiuor cause i so really need it. well not really need its more of a want. i want to get so inebriated right now that it hurts but with this medication i am taking it is encouraged by my doctors that i do not add any alchohol with it. i am also getting to the point where i am tired of smelling it aswell. i know i do not make any sence but hell i want to drink. since i took anger management i learned to control my anger; eventhough i sometimes break and yell i don't get to the point where i would do any physical harm.
the things that made me want to drink tonight is due to my mates father passing away and due to that my mate had to release 120 dollars to a tow company so they didn't tow my vehicle since it was parked infront of my place on the sidewalk and not in the middle of the street like the tow guys said. so yeah i really need to get the fuck out of here for a while after all the healing is done.
so yeah hopefully next year it will be alot better.
Aug. 27th, 2008 @ 02:05 am
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| » bleh last couple of weeks |
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well since the past month F.A has been down and within that area of time so many things has happened. on august 6th my mates father passed away due to unfortunatelly three strands of cancer. one in his pancreas, liver and kidney. my mate chris had to tell his father that the only thing keeping him alive was the high blood pressure medicine. his dad said he was tired and he wanted to sleep and to take it off. that was on monday the 4th. two days later he passed away.
so you can tel alot of me trying to help my mate cope with it and on top of that helping his mohter out as much as possible.
doyle was cremated on saturday august 9th and then burried on wednesday, its was a nice military proper funeral. even though chris's dad's health wasn't that great he tried to live life to the fullest. he was 66 years old.
I miss Doyle he helped my mate and i to start our life in our own home. he will be greatly missed by friends and family.
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now for me. 4 days pryor on doyles death i find out that my aunt stella from colorado is also dying with cancer. this was the year i was going to try and go out there since i was born there and want to visit before my 30th birthday. its just sad that it makes me have to go towards something sad instead of something positive; but its my dad's sister he has been taking it hard lately just like chris on his fathers death.
well that is it just wanted to give out a little heads up.
Aug. 23rd, 2008 @ 02:57 pm
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well today i went for court and got the case dissmissed basically since my dad told the courts that he needs me right now since he found out that his sister was dying from cancer. well haven't heard much from the news of my aunts health; but today about 15 minutes after i got home my mate got a call from his mother stating that daddy has died. 2 hours after he comes back home his dad dies. now what about my aunt i hope she won't suffer.
Aug. 6th, 2008 @ 09:12 pm
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